Help Me, Shiva!

Dear Shiva-

I just saw on another site where Shiva is referred to as a man. I am utterly confused. But, anyway, I have always had a special connection with you. This week, I am overwhelmed. Christmas is in a few days, I have been permenantly connected to the Fox School District since my daughter's bullying incident, Cingular has slapped us with $600 in fake but apparently legal charges, and my $1600 in property taxes are due in just a few days. I've been a good girl, really. I have worked and worked for solutions to others' problems, I have even tried understanding and compassion toward the little girl I believed hurt my daughter. I finished all the Xmas shopping (except for my FIL- still, I have no idea). I haven't told anyone to fuck off. I know that somehow, some way, I will be provided for. It might be tight or chaotic, but that's just life. I still need to make fudge for the trashman. Damn.