Stagnation, Masturbation, Conversation, Infactuation, Maturation, Adoration....Co-habitation

Well, it's official. C and I are moving in together. We "groped" the subject in passing about a week ago, and we discussed it in length yesterday. I am shocked by my very comfort in this. I cannot remember being so trusting in a man, or even his word. Especially his word. Our main issue to work around is keeping the cats inside, and Jake, the killer dog, outside.

We are going to view a house today next to my wise and ever-helpful friend, E. I stopped by the house yesterday to get a good look at it. It's cute. The house is creamy, and sided, with a walk out basement, and perhaps a sun porch in the front...The one thing it does not have is a garage for the Harley and lawn tools.

And, I must dish: I have debated as to whether or not to write this here, as it seems a violation of our intimacy. Yes, I have intimacy now...check that shit out! But, I have never even heard of anything like this before, and my archives do not seem to last anyway. He was playing with my hair the other night, and told me how much he loved me, and I was already the most important thing to him, and that..."every time we are together, it is amazing, and it leaves a landmark on my soul." (Sob and blubber here.)

Needless to say, I was stunned speechless. I should have said something amazing in return, and "I love you, baby" was all that fell out of my mouth. My mother said she wanted to slap me, that was all I could say? I know, I said, but how in the hell do you follow that?

Now, I did have one man tell me that I was fabulous and wonderful, yada yada yada, and that I "made him want to be a better man." Really? Because Helen Hunt made Jack Nicholson want to do the same thing in As Good As It Gets. What a coincidence!

I must go now, and drop off my daughter with her father. We are helping another couple move today, and then we shall view the house. I meet his parents early- tonight- they bumped it up. I call on Ganesh to remove any idiotic banter from my mouth!