Misfit

I think I feel like the world's biggest misfit today. I know that there have to be at least a million other suburban moms out there with the same conundrum. I wanted to do something today. So, who do I call? My friends...I blow through some phone numbers. Well, my best friend is in Israel. My other friend is headed to China and Russia next week. Another friend is napping. Another friend is at work. Another friend is MIA. Another friend is laying on her ass. Ok, well, then. My friends are doing everything or nothing, and both are keeping them to busy to be friends. WTF? It's just one of those days. But, aren't there other women stuck in-between? The ones that clean the house, do the laundry, and can't run off to Russia in the middle of the school year? Where are those chicks? Every time I call one of these women, their lives or so busy or so whatever, that there is no actual friendship at the basis of the friendship anymore, and that is depressing. OH! Wow! Just remembered my dream. I dreamt I had lost my job, some job, and I remember telling myself that everything would be ok, that it's wasn't an actual loss, but just change. And that change can be painful or scary, but it's only change. The rest is mostly in your mind. Damn! I know I have been feeling this way for a while (months), but maybe last night, I started to deal with it all....hmmmm.....